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Thursday 22nd May 2008
i have decided that i will remain honest with my Mistress as i discuss my thoughts, feelings and emotions about being in chastity - there will be no attempt by me to try and get my period of chastity reduced. i want to remain in chastity for as long as my Mistress wants to keep me in chastity, the reason for my comments will be revealed.
i eventually went to bed around 11.45pm last night - there is no point going to bed now until i am ready to go to bed as i can no longer play with Mistress' nipples and/or cock now! To my complete surprise i went to sleep relatively quickly and slept very well - that was until 5.07am precisely - when i awoke with a sharp pain in Mistress' cock. Those damn points of intrigue were biting into Mistress' cock because it was aroused - it was in its morning glory, it wanted to be huge, it wanted to be erect, it wanted to be strong and proud, but it could not as it had nowhere to go. i am now wide awake as i am trying to calm Mistress' cock down. i want it to be limp, flaccid, but no way, it is aroused by the points of intrigue and my level of pain is increasing as each minute passes. i feel like an absolute fool - wide awake waiting for Mistress' cock to go limp. At 5.22am the pain in Mistress' cock finally reduces and Her cock has finally had enough and i am allowed to go back to sleep now except that i am wide awake so i toss and turn until 6.00am when my alarm goes off!
i need to go to the toilet - i need to pee - but oh shit - i have to sit on the seat - no more standing for me. Just like a female now when going to the toilet - i sit on the seat and wait and wait till eventually my urine finally trickles through the cage, and a funny twinkling sound rings aloud as my urine eventually strikes the bottom of the pan. i have just discovered what it is like to have a twinkle! unbelievable! i shower and dress. How ugly this big bulge at the front of my pants - if only people would know the real reason - but of course i do not want anyone to know! The train journey was another surprise - Mistress' cock wanted to play and it did not matter what i said or tried, it was aroused, the points of intrigue were taking effect, i slump into my chair and just wait until it goes away!
The rest of the day at work was quite uneventful. In fact i never really took much notice of the device and then the journey home. i reflect on my 1st day in chastity on the journey home and i feel different - i am no longer male - i am feeling happy and contented but i have no thought of aggression or anything that could be construed as normal male behaviour. Control the cock and control the man - perhaps it is true!
i am at home this evening and my Mistress is very jovial and happy (as always). i take it that Mistress is very pleased to have Her slave in chastity - every time i receive a new message from Mistress Her cock gets aroused - oh no, not again i think - please Mistress leave me alone. Mistress adds to my level of discomfort by advising what my tasks are for Friday and Saturday - they are both very exciting Mistress, please stop i think to myself, please don't keep arousing your slave Mistress.
my thoughts now focus on how different i feel. i no longer have that desire of wanting to do tasks that arouse Mistress' cock, i am doing something totally for the amusement and pleasure of my Mistress, for no other reason. In fact i do not want any form of pleasure or stimulation for myself - the points of intrigue make sure of that.
i have no idea how long Mistress intends to keep me in chastity - i know better than to ask - i will remain in chastity for as long as my Mitress wishes. i will have to survive - no pain no gain. If today is any indication, i will gain a lot from being in chastity because i certainly suffered quite a lot of pain today. i keep wondering who would have designed such an evil device? i decide that no male would ever be that cruel to fellow males so it must have been designed by a Superior Female.
i am pleased just how well i have coped with my 1st 24 hours - much better than i imagined - but the impact on my behaviour and feelings has been enormous. am eager and ready to serve my Goddess with no thought of pleasure or benefit to myself. Could this be the beginning of experiencing my lifelong dream of being a "true" slave?
i eventually went to bed around 11.45pm last night - there is no point going to bed now until i am ready to go to bed as i can no longer play with Mistress' nipples and/or cock now! To my complete surprise i went to sleep relatively quickly and slept very well - that was until 5.07am precisely - when i awoke with a sharp pain in Mistress' cock. Those damn points of intrigue were biting into Mistress' cock because it was aroused - it was in its morning glory, it wanted to be huge, it wanted to be erect, it wanted to be strong and proud, but it could not as it had nowhere to go. i am now wide awake as i am trying to calm Mistress' cock down. i want it to be limp, flaccid, but no way, it is aroused by the points of intrigue and my level of pain is increasing as each minute passes. i feel like an absolute fool - wide awake waiting for Mistress' cock to go limp. At 5.22am the pain in Mistress' cock finally reduces and Her cock has finally had enough and i am allowed to go back to sleep now except that i am wide awake so i toss and turn until 6.00am when my alarm goes off!
i need to go to the toilet - i need to pee - but oh shit - i have to sit on the seat - no more standing for me. Just like a female now when going to the toilet - i sit on the seat and wait and wait till eventually my urine finally trickles through the cage, and a funny twinkling sound rings aloud as my urine eventually strikes the bottom of the pan. i have just discovered what it is like to have a twinkle! unbelievable! i shower and dress. How ugly this big bulge at the front of my pants - if only people would know the real reason - but of course i do not want anyone to know! The train journey was another surprise - Mistress' cock wanted to play and it did not matter what i said or tried, it was aroused, the points of intrigue were taking effect, i slump into my chair and just wait until it goes away!
The rest of the day at work was quite uneventful. In fact i never really took much notice of the device and then the journey home. i reflect on my 1st day in chastity on the journey home and i feel different - i am no longer male - i am feeling happy and contented but i have no thought of aggression or anything that could be construed as normal male behaviour. Control the cock and control the man - perhaps it is true!
i am at home this evening and my Mistress is very jovial and happy (as always). i take it that Mistress is very pleased to have Her slave in chastity - every time i receive a new message from Mistress Her cock gets aroused - oh no, not again i think - please Mistress leave me alone. Mistress adds to my level of discomfort by advising what my tasks are for Friday and Saturday - they are both very exciting Mistress, please stop i think to myself, please don't keep arousing your slave Mistress.
my thoughts now focus on how different i feel. i no longer have that desire of wanting to do tasks that arouse Mistress' cock, i am doing something totally for the amusement and pleasure of my Mistress, for no other reason. In fact i do not want any form of pleasure or stimulation for myself - the points of intrigue make sure of that.
i have no idea how long Mistress intends to keep me in chastity - i know better than to ask - i will remain in chastity for as long as my Mitress wishes. i will have to survive - no pain no gain. If today is any indication, i will gain a lot from being in chastity because i certainly suffered quite a lot of pain today. i keep wondering who would have designed such an evil device? i decide that no male would ever be that cruel to fellow males so it must have been designed by a Superior Female.
i am pleased just how well i have coped with my 1st 24 hours - much better than i imagined - but the impact on my behaviour and feelings has been enormous. am eager and ready to serve my Goddess with no thought of pleasure or benefit to myself. Could this be the beginning of experiencing my lifelong dream of being a "true" slave?
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