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Friday 23rd May 2008
i have been in chastity for 48 hours now but who is counting! i am very pleased just how well i am coping - i have previously only been in locked chastity once before - that was about 8 months ago when i could only last for 8 days - it was extremely uncomfortable and i could not stand it on. i do not know if it is because i now know what to expect or not but it has been much easier this time to cope as i have not wanted to try and touch the device so far.
That is the good news, that bad news is i am changing very quickly. It hit me most at lunchtime today walking down the mall, beautiful female after beautiful female walking past and yet i did not want to look, i did not want to get aroused, i did not want to suffer pain, i do not wanting anything to do with arousing Mistress' cock. i have for the past 30 years trying to get my cock aroused now i do not want to get any form of erection with Mistress' cock. i am feeling so passive, calm and easygoing, all that male aggressive behaviour has been drained from me - i am no longer a male - after all how can i be when i have to sit on the toilet seat to pee. i am really struggling to come to grips with having to take a seat to take a pee, it is now such a huge drama just to go to the toilet. How do females put up with this all the time i think.
i had a good nights sleep till 4.55am when the same thing as last night - huge erection means only 1 thing, now huge pain. It lasted for about 40 minutes this morning and i do not seem to be able to do anything to prevent it. i certainly am not trying to get Mistress' cock aroused but it just happens.
i was very excited to get my first comment last night thanks Mira - i much appreciated your comment glad to see that my predicament is giving pleasure to more than one Superior Female.
i was just surfing the net when to my complete surprise Mistress was on line speaking with Her slave from Her hospital bed - luckily for me i was not out and about enjoying myself instead of being home doing my tasks. Tomorrow is weigh-in day again - no respite for me even when Mistress is in Hospital as i have to send an SMS to Mistress tomorrow morning with my weight. i have no idea what the result will be. i hope it is a positive result for me as a punishment on top of locked chastity would be very very difficult to take but then again nothing is meant to be easy for a slave and i enjoy every minute of my treatment!
That is the good news, that bad news is i am changing very quickly. It hit me most at lunchtime today walking down the mall, beautiful female after beautiful female walking past and yet i did not want to look, i did not want to get aroused, i did not want to suffer pain, i do not wanting anything to do with arousing Mistress' cock. i have for the past 30 years trying to get my cock aroused now i do not want to get any form of erection with Mistress' cock. i am feeling so passive, calm and easygoing, all that male aggressive behaviour has been drained from me - i am no longer a male - after all how can i be when i have to sit on the toilet seat to pee. i am really struggling to come to grips with having to take a seat to take a pee, it is now such a huge drama just to go to the toilet. How do females put up with this all the time i think.
i had a good nights sleep till 4.55am when the same thing as last night - huge erection means only 1 thing, now huge pain. It lasted for about 40 minutes this morning and i do not seem to be able to do anything to prevent it. i certainly am not trying to get Mistress' cock aroused but it just happens.
i was very excited to get my first comment last night thanks Mira - i much appreciated your comment glad to see that my predicament is giving pleasure to more than one Superior Female.
i was just surfing the net when to my complete surprise Mistress was on line speaking with Her slave from Her hospital bed - luckily for me i was not out and about enjoying myself instead of being home doing my tasks. Tomorrow is weigh-in day again - no respite for me even when Mistress is in Hospital as i have to send an SMS to Mistress tomorrow morning with my weight. i have no idea what the result will be. i hope it is a positive result for me as a punishment on top of locked chastity would be very very difficult to take but then again nothing is meant to be easy for a slave and i enjoy every minute of my treatment!
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