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Saturday 24th May 2008
What can i say - 3 days into my period of chastity and there is only 1 person laughing now - and that is certainly not me. i am feeling very strange - i am not unhappy - in fact i am very happy - i just feel lost. It is the first time that i have ever not been able to feel male - i am getting desperate to just get a hard-on, oh what bliss that would be, to feel the breeze around Mistress' balls and cock. Just to have that free hanging feeling of Mistress' cock and balls - it is certainly something that i will never take for granted again!
i do not know what to do. i spend a lot of my time keeping myself aroused and excited, now i am still excited but not aroused. Still i am happy that my Mistress does have possession of my key because i am sure that today i would have opened the envelope, freed Mistress' cock and then taken whatever punishment Mistress considered appropriate and deserved for such brazen and disrespectful behaviour. i do know that it will not matter how hard i scream, yell or complain, my Mistress will just laugh and smile and tell me to go away. i will be released when my Mistress wants to release me so at least knowing this does help me cope better!
A perfect example of how being in locked chastity has changed me is today Mistress required me to eat ALL of my meals from my doggy bowl on all fours on the floor. Normally i find this task very, very humiliating and absolutely exciting. i have a hard on for hours when i have done this in the past. Today, no hard on, no erection, no stimulation, but totally humiliated. i am just being treated like a slave now, that is why i am still very happy because that is all i want to be - a slave.
i was out of bed at 8.30am and stepped on the scales - 83.9 kilograms - this weight was up 0.3 kilograms from last week. i normally am very worried about my weight but given the weight on the end of Mistress' cock feels like it weighs a ton (i have no idea what it weighs), so i have no idea what the true result was. Did i lose weight this week or not i do not know. However my Mistress is not concerned and no punishment for me - you beauty - that is all i want to know! To be in locked chastity and to be punished, that would be too much. There is a limit just how much hardship a slave can endure!
Eating my cereal from the floor in my doggy bowl, what can i say - lucky for me there was no video - but a few images for my Goddess just to prove that i did eat my breakfast in the required manner.
It was quite difficult eating cereal doggy style. Very messy with milk splashed all over the lower part of my face - still i managed to eat all my breakfast then it was time for lunch. However before i was allowed to have lunch, it was off for my 40 minute Saturday morning walk although i must admit it is a bit hard to be enthusiastic about exercise with a big lump of plastic attached to Mistress' cock.
Shortly after my walk it was time for lunch - ham, tomato and lettuce multi grain sandwich - it does not matter what i eat - it must be eaten from my doggy bowl today. Mistress insisted so i made my sandwich and then cut it into small bite size pieces, placed each piece in the doggy bowl and then down on all fours to munch on my lunch. It was really a waste of time placing it neatly in the bowl because as soon as i put my snout in the bowl, the small pieces of sandwich broke apart and it was just a complete mess in the bowl shortly after. Although it did not look very attractive it still tasted like a normal sandwich so although it looked terrible it was still nice!
Nothing more to do for my Mistress this afternoon till dinner - what do i do for the next 4 hours? Normally i would have my cock aroused thinking about my Mistress, thinking about my tasks, and just how Mistress excites me all the time. No arousal for me today - i feel lost. i watch the tv and a few other things, surf the net for a while but it is a very long, long boring day without any stimulation! Is this what life is like without a cock? Mistress' cock cannot help itself and although i try not to get it aroused but it is kept tightly under control by the small cage - could i break the cage with a huge erection? i ponder this question but realize very quickly that i am just being silly and soon abandon any thoughts of trying to do that!
Around 6.00pm and time for Dinner - lamb chops and salad on the menu. i have never had lamb chops and salad doggy style before so i decide to have my salad first and then have my lamb chops separately. i eat my salad and then the chops. The chops are very greasy and slip all around in the bowl but perseverance always wins out and i finish all my meals leaving the bowl clean after each meal. Is there anything better for a slave than to be down on all fours eating his meals doggy style? It must be the only way a slave should ever eat!
Normally i would be so excited about having had to eat ALL my meals doggy style that Mistress' cock would be huge and i probably would not be able to sleep. But tonight i am happy and smiling inwardly without any form of arousal just hoping that tomorrow will be as good a day as today has been - everything is perfect - i am in slave heaven!
i do not know what to do. i spend a lot of my time keeping myself aroused and excited, now i am still excited but not aroused. Still i am happy that my Mistress does have possession of my key because i am sure that today i would have opened the envelope, freed Mistress' cock and then taken whatever punishment Mistress considered appropriate and deserved for such brazen and disrespectful behaviour. i do know that it will not matter how hard i scream, yell or complain, my Mistress will just laugh and smile and tell me to go away. i will be released when my Mistress wants to release me so at least knowing this does help me cope better!
A perfect example of how being in locked chastity has changed me is today Mistress required me to eat ALL of my meals from my doggy bowl on all fours on the floor. Normally i find this task very, very humiliating and absolutely exciting. i have a hard on for hours when i have done this in the past. Today, no hard on, no erection, no stimulation, but totally humiliated. i am just being treated like a slave now, that is why i am still very happy because that is all i want to be - a slave.
i was out of bed at 8.30am and stepped on the scales - 83.9 kilograms - this weight was up 0.3 kilograms from last week. i normally am very worried about my weight but given the weight on the end of Mistress' cock feels like it weighs a ton (i have no idea what it weighs), so i have no idea what the true result was. Did i lose weight this week or not i do not know. However my Mistress is not concerned and no punishment for me - you beauty - that is all i want to know! To be in locked chastity and to be punished, that would be too much. There is a limit just how much hardship a slave can endure!
Eating my cereal from the floor in my doggy bowl, what can i say - lucky for me there was no video - but a few images for my Goddess just to prove that i did eat my breakfast in the required manner.
It was quite difficult eating cereal doggy style. Very messy with milk splashed all over the lower part of my face - still i managed to eat all my breakfast then it was time for lunch. However before i was allowed to have lunch, it was off for my 40 minute Saturday morning walk although i must admit it is a bit hard to be enthusiastic about exercise with a big lump of plastic attached to Mistress' cock.
Shortly after my walk it was time for lunch - ham, tomato and lettuce multi grain sandwich - it does not matter what i eat - it must be eaten from my doggy bowl today. Mistress insisted so i made my sandwich and then cut it into small bite size pieces, placed each piece in the doggy bowl and then down on all fours to munch on my lunch. It was really a waste of time placing it neatly in the bowl because as soon as i put my snout in the bowl, the small pieces of sandwich broke apart and it was just a complete mess in the bowl shortly after. Although it did not look very attractive it still tasted like a normal sandwich so although it looked terrible it was still nice!
Nothing more to do for my Mistress this afternoon till dinner - what do i do for the next 4 hours? Normally i would have my cock aroused thinking about my Mistress, thinking about my tasks, and just how Mistress excites me all the time. No arousal for me today - i feel lost. i watch the tv and a few other things, surf the net for a while but it is a very long, long boring day without any stimulation! Is this what life is like without a cock? Mistress' cock cannot help itself and although i try not to get it aroused but it is kept tightly under control by the small cage - could i break the cage with a huge erection? i ponder this question but realize very quickly that i am just being silly and soon abandon any thoughts of trying to do that!
Around 6.00pm and time for Dinner - lamb chops and salad on the menu. i have never had lamb chops and salad doggy style before so i decide to have my salad first and then have my lamb chops separately. i eat my salad and then the chops. The chops are very greasy and slip all around in the bowl but perseverance always wins out and i finish all my meals leaving the bowl clean after each meal. Is there anything better for a slave than to be down on all fours eating his meals doggy style? It must be the only way a slave should ever eat!
Normally i would be so excited about having had to eat ALL my meals doggy style that Mistress' cock would be huge and i probably would not be able to sleep. But tonight i am happy and smiling inwardly without any form of arousal just hoping that tomorrow will be as good a day as today has been - everything is perfect - i am in slave heaven!
"and there is only 1 person laughing now"
Uh uh, 2 people laughing!
"could i break the cage with a huge erection?"
Modest aren't we!
cheers
mira
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