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Thursday 19th June 2008
Today may just be another normal day to everybody else but today is going to become a slave defining day for me. As instructed i went and bought my webcam and after a few little technical problems it was soon up and running and when Mistress logged onto Messenger it was time to show Mistress. Mistress was most impressed and tonight i was the only person on camera - Mistress was going to watch Her slave this evening. It felt very strange, not so much that Mistress could watch me, but i could not see my Goddess. i could not see how She was reacting to my behaviour - it was very intimidating. Was my Mistress smiling, cursing, grimacing or laughing uncontrollably? i had no idea, but Mistress could see every single facial expression and action by me! Oh dear this was just the beginning of my new world.
Mistress has announced with glee that whenever i am logged onto Messenger my webcam will ALWAYS be on and Mistress will decide when or not Her's will be switched on. Whilst i have no problem with Mistress not being on webcam ALL the time, that is Her privilege and right, but for me to be on webcam every time is going to make my life very difficult. i am digressing and making excuses. i know that from now on Mistress will be able to see what i am thinking, acting or doing, whenever She feels like it now. There will no longer be any time when i may be a little slack and do a little bit extra to make up for my slackness from the day before.
i am not perturbed or disturbed by this change in control. i am very excited as it is what i have hoped for, it is what i need to develop as a slave. i think i have matured and improved so much as a slave over the last 15 months that i am now going to see if i have matured and developed as a slave as much as i think i have and will be able to accept and embrace this new form of control (technology). i am going to have to very quickly or i will suffer!
As a guide as to how my life will change, Mistress wanted a quick pan around my kitchen - no time to clean up and no warning. i considered it was not too bad, just a few items sitting around that should have been put away. However near enough is not good enough for Mistress Adira and She advised that the standard of my kitchen was not satisfactory and it will improve. i have taken the hint from my Mistress and have spent the last 20 minutes tidying up. Never know when a surprise webcam inspection will happen now.
At least Mistress was pleased to see i was wearing my winter uniform and collar - i will be in my correct state of (un)dress from now on without fail! my mind has been racing with how Mistress will use this technology to control me and i have realized the possibilities for my Goddess are endless. Mistress will be able to watch Her slave do anything that She wishes, from eating its food from its doggy bowl, cleaning, sitting in the rest position, watching TV, etc.
i think having webcam will assist me greatly in my desire to become a true slave. i will have to obey every command of my Goddess without fail from now on. How wonderful for me and i suspect this is also very exciting for my Goddess.
Mistress has announced with glee that whenever i am logged onto Messenger my webcam will ALWAYS be on and Mistress will decide when or not Her's will be switched on. Whilst i have no problem with Mistress not being on webcam ALL the time, that is Her privilege and right, but for me to be on webcam every time is going to make my life very difficult. i am digressing and making excuses. i know that from now on Mistress will be able to see what i am thinking, acting or doing, whenever She feels like it now. There will no longer be any time when i may be a little slack and do a little bit extra to make up for my slackness from the day before.
i am not perturbed or disturbed by this change in control. i am very excited as it is what i have hoped for, it is what i need to develop as a slave. i think i have matured and improved so much as a slave over the last 15 months that i am now going to see if i have matured and developed as a slave as much as i think i have and will be able to accept and embrace this new form of control (technology). i am going to have to very quickly or i will suffer!
As a guide as to how my life will change, Mistress wanted a quick pan around my kitchen - no time to clean up and no warning. i considered it was not too bad, just a few items sitting around that should have been put away. However near enough is not good enough for Mistress Adira and She advised that the standard of my kitchen was not satisfactory and it will improve. i have taken the hint from my Mistress and have spent the last 20 minutes tidying up. Never know when a surprise webcam inspection will happen now.
At least Mistress was pleased to see i was wearing my winter uniform and collar - i will be in my correct state of (un)dress from now on without fail! my mind has been racing with how Mistress will use this technology to control me and i have realized the possibilities for my Goddess are endless. Mistress will be able to watch Her slave do anything that She wishes, from eating its food from its doggy bowl, cleaning, sitting in the rest position, watching TV, etc.
i think having webcam will assist me greatly in my desire to become a true slave. i will have to obey every command of my Goddess without fail from now on. How wonderful for me and i suspect this is also very exciting for my Goddess.
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