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Saturday 19th July 2008
It has been a very difficult past few days - being in locked chastity is really the pits. i have been suffering so many mood swings that i have been more impossible than normal for Mistress Adira to understand. At 9.00am i can be completely comfortable about being in locked chastity and thinking that i could handle being in locked chastity forever, then at midday i want to be released. i must be released now...i cannot stand another minute in locked chastity and i want my freedom Mistress! i don't understand myself Mistress so i must be acting like a lunatic to Your mind Mistress.
i suppose Mistress Adira has seen all this before but being in chastity is not fun, it is not exciting, it quite frankly sucks. Still it is not my choice that i am in locked chastity. It is not like i asked my Goddess to place me in locked chastity but what i have done is that i have committed to being a collared slave and therefore i just have to endure it. If i want to be slave as badly as i believe, then i must learn to accept chastity because although i think i only have 13 days to go, that is for this time, i do not know what the circumstances will be next time!
In other news i think i am a very fortunate slave this week because i do not think that i am going to be punished for having a small increase in my weight this week. i always knew it was going to be difficult this week and my weight had gone up 0.2 kilograms from last week. Normally an increase in my weight results in 12 strokes of the cane - pretty good incentive to lose weight. It appears that Mistress Adira is being in a very generous mood with me (perhaps that is the only advantage about being in locked chastity: i do not get punished for every mistake i make
and i am not going to receive 12 of Her best this time). Phew!!!!
i was so concerned about my weight this week that i could not, or should i say did not, want to get out of bed this morning but eventually i stepped on the scales at 8.30am and then it was back to bed for me for another hour's sleep before it was time to go for my walk. my normal routine is that after i have completed my walk, i SMS Mistress Adira to advise that i have completed my task. i usually do this by about 9.30am on Saturdays but today it was not until 10.45am when i received the following reply "About bloody time". Fair go Mistress. Is there never any leniency for your slave Mistress?
Mistress Adira continued being in a very aggressive manner with me this afternoon. i never know what to expect with my Goddess as the first words i received were "is maid marian dressed?" "No, of course not Mistress", i said. "i do not wear my maid's uniform without permission Mistress." A quick change and then Mistress announced that i would be cleaning both toilets and bathrooms today including floors and mirrors! Does anybody enjoy doing such cleaning? Well maid marian does! It does not matter what she is asked to clean so it was a good afternoon for me as i forgot about my being in locked chastity for a change and dressed in my maids uniform, spent the afternoon cleaning, scrubbing and ironing.
The afternoon went rather quickly and before i knew it, four hours had elapsed but at least i now have a clean unit which may be very handy as i think Mistress Adira is wanting unrestricted access to my unit very, very soon to conduct surprise inspections. Oh well, just another change in my life that i will have to cope with. Who said life as a slave was meant to be easy!
i suppose Mistress Adira has seen all this before but being in chastity is not fun, it is not exciting, it quite frankly sucks. Still it is not my choice that i am in locked chastity. It is not like i asked my Goddess to place me in locked chastity but what i have done is that i have committed to being a collared slave and therefore i just have to endure it. If i want to be slave as badly as i believe, then i must learn to accept chastity because although i think i only have 13 days to go, that is for this time, i do not know what the circumstances will be next time!
In other news i think i am a very fortunate slave this week because i do not think that i am going to be punished for having a small increase in my weight this week. i always knew it was going to be difficult this week and my weight had gone up 0.2 kilograms from last week. Normally an increase in my weight results in 12 strokes of the cane - pretty good incentive to lose weight. It appears that Mistress Adira is being in a very generous mood with me (perhaps that is the only advantage about being in locked chastity: i do not get punished for every mistake i make
and i am not going to receive 12 of Her best this time). Phew!!!!i was so concerned about my weight this week that i could not, or should i say did not, want to get out of bed this morning but eventually i stepped on the scales at 8.30am and then it was back to bed for me for another hour's sleep before it was time to go for my walk. my normal routine is that after i have completed my walk, i SMS Mistress Adira to advise that i have completed my task. i usually do this by about 9.30am on Saturdays but today it was not until 10.45am when i received the following reply "About bloody time". Fair go Mistress. Is there never any leniency for your slave Mistress?
Mistress Adira continued being in a very aggressive manner with me this afternoon. i never know what to expect with my Goddess as the first words i received were "is maid marian dressed?" "No, of course not Mistress", i said. "i do not wear my maid's uniform without permission Mistress." A quick change and then Mistress announced that i would be cleaning both toilets and bathrooms today including floors and mirrors! Does anybody enjoy doing such cleaning? Well maid marian does! It does not matter what she is asked to clean so it was a good afternoon for me as i forgot about my being in locked chastity for a change and dressed in my maids uniform, spent the afternoon cleaning, scrubbing and ironing.
The afternoon went rather quickly and before i knew it, four hours had elapsed but at least i now have a clean unit which may be very handy as i think Mistress Adira is wanting unrestricted access to my unit very, very soon to conduct surprise inspections. Oh well, just another change in my life that i will have to cope with. Who said life as a slave was meant to be easy!
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