It has been a very interesting 48 hours for me since i have been released from my month of chastity! Why has it been so interesting? The answer is simple, i have not touched Mistress' cock in any way since i have been released. i cannot believe that i have not even be tempted to just touch it to make sure it is still there but i have no inclination to want to play with it. i am not saying that i have no desires or urges to stimulate and arouse Mistress' cock, it is just that i have no desire to touch or play with it! i think the major reason for this is that i fear that if i even touch it in any way, it will explode and release seed like never before and if it did that, Mistress Adira would not be amused. i am sure that lack of control would cost me much more than 14 strokes of the cane! But then again orgasming without permission should incur a greater punishment than having only two small alcoholic drinks, but i digress Mistress!

This has been a most major and significant change in my behaviour as although i have not had permission previously, it has been impossible not to at least touch or play with Her cock at some stage but as at today, i have absolutely no desire or urge to touch it! How long this will last i have no idea. Perhaps by being placed in chastity for 33 days i have cured this disgusting habit Mistress of playing with Your cock although W/we both know that the only way the temptation to play with Your cock can be removed with certainty, is to remain in chastity all of the time Mistress and your slave does not want that Mistress!

i have been getting myself into more and more hot water every night with my Goddess and there appears absolutely nothing i can do about it. Mistress Adira is always about three steps in front of me. It is very scary to think that my Goddess knows what i am thinking and how i will react before i know what i am going to do or think! It appears as though every time i say something, Mistress uses it in some way to get me into an impossible situation where no matter how i answer, i will only get myself into more trouble. Very unfair and all the time Mistress Adira is able to see me squirm, slump, laugh, smile as each new comment arrives!

my stripes are fading fast now much to my disappointment but there is no way i am going to volunteer to get myself into trouble as i never know just what punishment my Mistress will impose. Better to be good and safe rather than bad and sorry! i have been so well trained that tonight i did not get home from work until an hour later than normal so i advised my Goddess of this and that i would be happy to do my walk tomorrow instead of today - no point in trying to get out of my "compulsory" walks so i do not even try any more!  i asked my Goddess for permission to have a few days off next week to watch some of the Olympics. i am not allowed to take any time off work without permission from Mistress Adira (how humiliating to ask permission to have a day off work) and Mistress agreed that i could have a few days off provided i did a one hour walk on each day that i take off! What kind of deal was that? It was the best deal i was going to get so it looks like i will be a very fit slave by the end of next week. Just hope the weather is nice as i do not want to walk in the rain!

i cannot believe Mistress Adira has not conducted a "surprise" inspection yet as She has had access to my unit for about 2 weeks now. i am not sure how much longer i can keep my unit clean! Still i guess that is the point that Mistress wants me to keep my unit clean ALL of the time not only when She is about to visit! i am no longer concerned about being allowed an orgasm - it is no longer a priority for me and i am happy just to wait for the moment until my Goddess considers it is time for me to release seed from Her cock. Just when will that be? Hopefully it will be sooner than later because i do not know just how much longer i will not have any desire to touch Her cock!