Monday 8th September 2008

i am a very, very worried slave this evening. Why you ask? The answer is simple, i am afraid that i am beginning to think that wearing a chastity device is normal! i cannot believe just how easy today has been. There have been a number of times that i have had to bang my hand against the front of my trousers to feel that thud of plastic to reassure myself that my chastity device is still there! It is very scary to think that after 48 hours i now suffer no inconvenience from wearing a chastity device! The reason why i am so worried is that this may mean that i will be wearing a chastity on a permanent basis from now on! It is most confusing to think that a male could find wearing a chastity device normal. But then again, i am not your typical male!

Speaking of being a typical male, the change in my behaviour and attitude is unbelievable when i am wearing my chastity device. i no longer think with my cock - i am much more reserved, demure and polite. i have lost my male mojo!! i no longer feel worthy of looking a Superior Female in the eye, my head is bowed and eyes looking towards the ground. i had never previously realized just how much a cock influenced a male's psyche and it is true - control the cock and control the man. i have continued to keep my thoughts pure again today although there was a significant movement in Mistress' cock on the train journey this morning. i could feel some stirring down there and as it became more and more aroused, it was like Mistress Adira was sticking five pins into Her cock - a sharp pain was piercing Her cock. i tried hard very hard to quell this unwanted form of arousal and after a few anxious moments i was able to reduce the thoughts of my Mistress and Her cock subsided back to its "normal" flaccid state! Phew that was close but it was my first indication just how the large points of intrigue will impact. At least after this period of chastity, having pins or needles placed in Mistress' cock will be a breeze!

Mistress Adira has allowed me to take Wednesday off so i can clean my unit for a landlord inspection on Thursday. It should be a breeze to pass this time - at least that is one bonus for me with a surprise inspection by my Goddess always a possibility! The good news is that Mistress has decided that W/we can go out to lunch provided i have finished my cleaning. A very good incentive to make sure i get up early and get all my cleaning chores done by lunchtime. What a treat for me - hopefully it will not impact too much on my weight loss this week!

i think the next few days are going to be very interesting for me as i try to prevent Mistress' cock from becoming aroused but i fear it is like a sleeping giant and it is ready to wake up and that will mean short sharp pangs of pain from those damn points of intrigue! Chastity of Your slave is so cruel Mistress!!