Tuesday 12th May 2009

Well i have been back less than 24 hours and i do not know where to start - i am in trouble big trouble Mistress!! However not all my news last night was bad, there was some exciting news. Mistress Adira has been making very good progress with trying to get a chauffeur's uniform made and with a bit of luck it may happen quite quickly if everything works out!! i certainly hope so Mistress!!

Last night Mistress and i were chatting on messenger when Mistress made a very small but pertinent point, one that i had not even considered previously and it has made me think just how much i still have to change to become a slave! Mistress Adira expressed her displeasure at not having Her slave available for 4 days. Mistress was not commenting about the fact that i chose to attend a family wedding that was all fine, the problem was that i had put my own self interests ahead of Mistress Adira's. Mistress pointed out that i should have only been away for a maximum of two days not four - time enough to attend the wedding and spend time with my mother on Mother's Day!! i was silent for a few minutes but Mistress was 100% correct. i had not thought about Mistress first and foremost. i could have/should have done exactly what Mistress had stated - i should have kept my time away from Mistress Adira to an absolute minimum! i was shocked that i had been that selfish. It just reminded me how difficult it is to be a real slave where everything i do is always for Mistress' wishes and desires first. Never do anything for my benefit at the expense of making Mistress Adira's life as easy and as pleasurable as possible! It is something that i will never forget from now on Mistress and if Your slave is allowed any future trips away interstate to visit family, my period of absence will be kept to an absolute minimum Mistress.

my other bad news is really worrying. i stepped on the scales this morning and i obviously should have kept my trip away to only 2 days because the scales do not tell a very pretty story!! It is hard to believe that i could put on so much weight in just 4 days. Now i have 2 days to lose what i took 4 days to put on. Life can be difficult as a slave but it is my own fault. It is suffice to say Mistress that i do not think i will be eating much over the next 2 days but even then, i am not sure i will lose enough weight Mistress to get back to my weight on the morning of my departure! i may have to plead to the mercy and generosity of my Mistress to cut me a bit of a slack. Perhaps if i can get my weight back to under 80 kilograms Mistress may let me off without another punishment but i do not see how i will be able to get down to 79.5 kilograms Mistress by Thursday morning Mistress!!

my other bad news is that i have just completed my 6th week in chastity and i was under the belief that my period of chastity would cease by the 6th June - Mistress Adira Day. What a wonderful present that would have been for me but Mistress announced last night that She was only going to begin to consider when my period of chastity may end by Mistress Adira Day! What does this actually mean i am not sure but i think my hopes of being released from chastity by the 6th June are not looking good and i am sure that any indiscretions by me between now and then is not going to help my cause. Putting on weight whilst i was away may not just see me punished with a few strokes of the cane, but may just add a few extra days or weeks to my period of chastity!! Food? What is food Mistress? It is a luxury Your slave is not going to enjoy for the next few days Mistress!!!